What do I want to be when I grow up?

This is a question I think about ALL the time.

When I was little I went throught the normal phases of wanting to be a doctor, an astronaut, a teacher, but my senior year I was clueless. I loved the time I spent at NASA at an aerospace engineering camp, I had fun at a Society of Women Engineers camp at A&M, but I couldn't really see myself doing that for the rest of my life.

I remember one time close to the end of my senior year, my dad asked me what I wanted to do with my life and I answered "I want to be a mom." I was single. I was 18. I hadn't graduated highschool yet. I'm sure my dad was like "WTF?!?!" But it was the truth. I didn't see why I should spend money going to college if I didn't really plan on using a degree. I wanted to be like my mom was when I was growing up. She was always home with me. ALWAYS. I remember pretending to be sick when I was in kindergarten so I could stay home and watch tv in my parents bed all day, because I knew that's what my mom would let me do. She'd pick me up from school and there would be a snack waiting for me on the table at home. Now that I'm thinking about it, ALWAYS is a little lie. She did go to work at the library when I was in second grade and after school I'd walk to the babysitters house, who was a family friend, and I would get so sick because I missed my mom so badly. She quit not long after :) Enough of memory lane.

I knew that I couldn't just live in Stratford and work at Express Lane forever waiting for the man of my dreams to sweep me off my feet. I loved being on the yearbook staff,, taking pics and designing pages, and I loved my graphic design class, fiddling around with Photoshop and Illustrator...so why not go to school for graphic design? I'm not going to go into how much I loathe Westwood now that Rob and I have almost $50K in school debt and a crap degree. If I hadn't gone to college, then I wouldn't have met Rob. I think that's the point I was trying to get to. Wow, I've really strayed from what I thought about at first.

Back on track. I am a mom. And I love it. I love staying home with my girls. I love not having to wake up and rush to work every morning. I am so glad that my girls do not have to go to a daycare where they're 1 of a dozen boogery babies that doesn't get alot of love and attention. But I'm thinking into the future now. When both girls are in school, what will I do all day? Yeah it might be fun to be able to sit around the house watching tv and eating Twinkies all day, but that would get old fast. I could work from the house, as a customer service rep. for one of the millions companies out there, but they are so strict on their work schedules and there is no flexibility for a sick child or time off to go to a school program. I could go back to work at Nu Prints or TJ Maxx. Uh....NO! Wait, I'll be a teacher! I love kids. I'm good with kids. I'll have holidays off to spend with the girls, most of the summer....yes, that's a good idea! Did I just figure out what I want to be when I grow up? I'm only almost 25....

A Party Girl gets married and I survive a 600 mile drive.

Part of me thinks it's kind of sad that I still refer to my bestfriends from highschool as The Party Girls. I mean, c'mon, we graduated 6 years ago, grow up already. But we were so awesome. So cool. (Or so we thought!) Glued at the hips. Best friends. And our legend will live on forever. (Atleast that's what we think!)

Anyway, this past weekend I drove, as crazy as it is to drive 600 miles on-way with my two car hating daughters, to the Panhandle to attend Alicia's wedding and visit friends and family.

Our visit started at Tiffany and Michael's house with Alicia and 7 bottle of wine. (Don't worry, we didn't finish all of them *winks*) It's been atleast 3 years since Tiffany, Alicia, and I have been together, but time hasn't changed a thing. The conversation and laughter just flowed, and if the girls had been asleep, we would have gone Matthew McConaughey hunting!

Then it was off to Dumas to see Wes and Dusty, hang out with the three D's (Daven, Dakota, and Dayton), and eat some of Aunt Vickie's delicious cookin'! More playtime, Doggie Days, the parade...wow it was action packed!

Then it was back to Amarillo for the wedding, and what a beautiful wedding it was.


Alicia so beautiful in her gorgeous gown. Delicious chicken fried steak catered by The Stockyard, yummy cake, good ole Texas country music, and yes - they even sang the A & M Fight song. You read that right, it was hilarious! But definitely something I'll remember always. I must add that the slideshow of her and Cody's pictures before the dancin' starting made me bawl like a big baby. It brought back some great memories. I am so happy that I was able to attend her wedding.

Of course, my girls wake up at the buttcrack of dawn, so the next morning we left for Dumas...again...to go to church with Wes and then to Mamaw and Papaw's house in Stratford. I had planned on staying in Stratford for atleast 3 days to spend time with more friends and hang out with Wes more, but the girls had been dragged around in the car for 4 days and they were exhausted. I was too! Kadence cried herself to sleep for Dada the last two nights, neither of them had a real nap or a good night's sleep. Kadence peeing on the carpet, Karlie pooping on the carpet....and then pooping on it again didn't help matters either. So the next morning we packed it up and drove home. I cried on the drive home because I really wanted to spend more time with my friends that I haven't seen in soooo long, I wanted to hang out with Wes because I miss him soooo much, but I knew it wouldn't be any fun for the girls. After our 12 hour drive home, Kadence bursted with excitement. Rob helped unload the car and played with the girls while I had some me time, then the girls crashed. Karlie curled up with her blankie in her crib and didn't let out a peep all night, Kadence didn't throw a fit to sleep in my bed like she usually does. She crawled into her bed and was out in just a few minutes. Aaahhhhh, time to relax....or sort the laundry....